Hi Ashleigh,

I just joined this forum, so I'm sorry for the delay in reply. I hope that you see this. I surely don't have easy answers, but you sound very brave and smart. I am almost 50, life is imperfect, but it has gotten much much better every year. You're reaching out for help--that takes so much courage and strength. Some people never take this step!

Best wishes to you in your journey. Keep on keeping on.