My mother was always worried and fearful. I didn't know how much it affected me. I blamed myself for the craziness in our home. I internalized it all. I started looking for what was wrong with me back in my teens through self help books. I never had self confidence. Long story short our family was fragmented. My mom had OCD and was controlling.. She died 3 days after my birthday. I had to get help myself a few years ago. My therapist told me I have unresolved grief. Mom died in December of 2012. I love her and hate her all at the sane time. Don't know how to grieve her. I know she couldn't help it. I do love her and miss her. Am I the only one who feels this way?